Pump my brakes on my own ambition

Slow and steady win the race. You are only competing with yourself.
— Gary Vanyerchuck

In the past couple of months, I attempted to run the marathon known as the artist's life by sprinting.  I sold my dust collecting Canon 5D and it set off an avalanche of potential ideas . The 5D cash quickly disappeared for a Zoom H5 and a Sony RXV. Immediately upon unpacking the new gear, the pressure to utilize the new gear began to creep in. I have suppressed dreams of producing videos and a far more professional podcast then my current on and off show for a while and now I had the tools to accomplish those dreams. What I overcame in terms of tools, I still lacked in terms of know how and execution. I need to learn an entire new art form (video production) to compete with those who videos I know regularly consume. Regularly uploading a video is the only way to keep upgrading my skills. However, I need the time to just learn the very basics in order to even start. 

Around the same time, I discovered I could get Tiny Plastic Box printed by a commercial printer rather then Blurb. The possibility of achieving the rare feat of finding a cheaper and higher quality option immediately sent me thinking of starting my own photobook publishing company. I quickly "learned" (the bare bones necessary to create a photobook) Indesign and submitted an order of 150 books as my own test run. I couldnt have been happier with the results and it opened the flood gates as to the potential. I thought about it so much over the past couple of weeks that I think I have a decent idea for how to do it.

Throw on top of these endeavors a 365 project which includes a small book every 50 days, a tent camera, experiments shooting with non-pinhole cameras, and a half finished darkroom and I am overwhelmed. The thing I realized this week is that I need to step back and focus on finding a pace which will allow me to finish this race rather than burnout. The short term feels so important. But in reality, I should easily have another 30 years at this game. Structuring my life to ensure that I can keep going for that long is vastly more important than whether I started a project today or in 6 months.