I am not my failures

Courage is going from failure to failure without losing enthusiasm.
— Winston Churchill

No other quote sums up my life as accurate as this Churchill's classic. After a year and a half, I was one of the last to drop out of the electrical engineering program ending the childhood dream of designing fighter jets. I worked incredibly hard to get into the bond trading department of ING Direct after only two years but was let go after 3 months because I arrogantly thought I was a prodigy. I didnt put the time and effort to learn my job to the level that was required. The resulting 9 months of unemployment were incredibly hard. I took a big step back in my career in order to restart it. I have lost more then 10K trading stocks, options, currencies. I recently took a job at Trader Joe's as I haven't been able to survive off my art. 

I now see how each failure propelled me forward to the point where I am now. My art probably would not exist without those failures. I feel I am just starting to explore my true self.

So why share these failures publicly? Don't let these temporary failures stop you. Failures are simply outcomes that didnt go as you wanted. I know failure hurts. I know failure suck. But its a learning experience. Use the failure as emotional fuel to push yourself further. 

You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future.
— Steve Jobs